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An assortment of images of life - where I am when I am MIA from here.

"plot twist"

found this floating around on the facebook - not sure of the source

The past month or so has been one of the most intense busy periods of my life thus far. Some really shitty stuff has occured, and some amazing dreams come true moments have happened.
What has struck me most is my coping. The perspective I have in the moment. Even as I am rock bottom I still have that little voice in the back of my mind saying "hey, its shitty as can be right now but it will come good in the end"

One of the biggest issues I have had in the past is being able to see beyond the emotion/situation I am in. This has obviously been a barrier to coping. Theealisation that I have gained this skill itself has been a comfort in my times of loss and pain.

It was meant to be, my finding the above image yesterday. I shared this on facebook, and today I have had some very unexpected news that some might call a setback (still awaiting details as to what direction we will take next, will fill y'all in at some point. knowing me it will be months before I find my way back here so dont hold your breath haha) so I am very much in the middle of a major plot twist of my own.
And you know what? Though I feel shitty as can be, I know that at some stage I will move on, having learn't new things about myself. Having had some major life experience, and some new stories to tell.
That being said, today calls for going home to a hot bath, then my book on the lounge under a big blanket with a cup of tea. And some shitty feelings with that perspective for me haha.

Mel
x

Hey blogger! The jerk store called...

Hello friends!

For the longest time (really only a few weeks) I have been trying to publish my posts but blogger has been a jerk and has been failing every single time. So freaking annoying when I am actually on track and wanting to blog!
Anyhow, blogger stopped being a mega big jerk it seems and randomly let me be me again so hoorah for that!

How is life these days?

Life for me is amazing, Himself is going great guns on One Man's and I am doing my part with that and living very well indeed.

x

mindfulness and being wholly alive

"Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough."

Ernest Hemingway

I am working with all of my might to breathe deeply at least once a day. To be alive with all my might, and to not skim over the surface of this life.

As a society it is all about rush rush rush - so busy, so much to do blahblahblah. So often I hear people exclaim "that is the date?! Wasn't it just christmas/easter/newyears etc? Where did all that time go?"

So often I hear myself wondering the very same thing. The time goes by while we are multi tasking, rushing, and playing on our freaking phones. Don't think for a second that I am not the worst offender of this, believe me! Every day I find myself hoping in the car to go someplace with himself and before we are even out of the driveway I am checking facebook/instagram/emails. It has become such a habit that we don't even notice our conscious mind slipping into auto.

We have become so adept at this that hours can slip by before we come to. 

Sometimes (I am totally ashamed to say this) himself has asked me a question while I am on the computer, I have answered it and after ward have no memory of the conversation.

When I was seeing my head doctor we focused big time on mindfulness, urges, and of just how good the mind is at doing its own thing. 

Some exercises sound simple - eating mindfully for example. Creating a dedicated place for eating, of turning of music/televisions, and being present when eating. This is a big one I struggle with. 

Even when waiting in line for something I feel a mild panic if I don't have my phone on me to play with. To actually be standing there with nothing to do but wait and be present is at times terrifying.  

Recently I was waiting for a train, and I forced myself to put the phone away. To not grab my book out. I just waited. It was super difficult at first, I was almost twitchy wanting to tune back out. But you know what? Once I truly let myself be aware of where I was, the smells, the sounds, the temperature of the platform - I was still okay (turns out not so scary haha)

 My thoughts began to flow, and almost the whole train journey home I pondered and looked out the window and saw things I never had before. Present and very alert. Had light bulb moments, and felt more 'me' than I would have otherwise.

My point? We are all rushing around, missing out on life, not truly experiencing the every day.

Join me, take a few minutes everyday where you would usually tune out. Concentrate on the smells, the sounds, the textures. Hear what you usually wouldn't.

Be alive with all of your might.

Thanks Danielle for linking to this.

Love those weekend links posts, I always find happies in there at the very precise time I needed to most

One Man's Trash...

For the past twenty minutes I have been sitting here with my mind both blank yet stupidly full all at the same time. Doesn't even sound possible does it? The stupidly full being that my life of late has been busybusybusy but with mostly inspiring creative 'stuff' which is awesome. The blank part comes in when I try to make some sort of sense of it in order to blog it.

So I figured I would upload a pic of lately and see what happens... (rambling on mostly haha) 

 

My life when I am not at work of late is filled with social media, networking, and product photography. One Man's Trash has been all consuming, we love it. Sharing such a creative endevour with himself is bliss, in our years together I have never seen him so inspired and focused.

The pieces we have posted on our facebook have been really well recieved, and as the 'likes' grow it is begining to feel like a community of likeminded people.

This is where I have been, and clearly not blogging, and for the first time I don't feel super guilty about it. For I am out there in the world being creative, loving, and living an authentic life - the fact that I can't find it in me to blog every few days is becoming much more okay to me. Don't get me wrong, I would love to be blogging constantly but working a full time management job, and then helping with One Man's in my 'free' time (plus family, friends, Ruby, and trying to self nuture) does not lend itself to being here all that much.

So yeah, go and like us on facebook if you haven't already (if you actually do like us/our work that is haha)

Mel x

CURRENTLY.

Linking in with the lovely Danielle from Sometimes Sweet for the first time, these prompts are really helpful to get the brain ticking over. Sometimes life moves at such a speed that I struggle to recall what is happening currently lol.

Watching: The Block All Stars and re-watching Sex and the City for the fifth time. Himself and I are hooked on this series of The Block so its fun to have that to share with one another. Also, I just super love renovation and design shows so that works haha.

Thinking about: Himself and his creative venture. We've been interested in vintage furniture, recycling, and salvaging items that would otherwise go to landfill for years. Up cycling items into new pieces, or just restoring those for our home. Anyhow, turns out that himself really loves it and he is great at it. It has begun to turn into something bigger (One Man's Trash) and I am the (self appointed) social media/marketing/retail manager haha. It is very fun, and I am so proud of him!

Also thinking about - sustainability. The way in which we eat, live, and our consumer habits. Sometimes I get horrid anxiety re:what we are doing to this poor Earth. I have been trying to get more locally, and making a conscious effort to reduce my impact.

Reading:  Animal , Vegetable, Miracle:A year of Food Life - by Barbara Kingsolver. I'm only a few chapters in so far and it is very interesting/informative regarding eating seasonally, and of just how far our food has travelled to be on our plate.  As a society we are so used to being able to get pretty much any fruit and vegetable at any time, mostly to the detriment of the Earth (fuel consumption etc) or the poor local farmers! Very eye opening indeed.

Looking forward to: Seeing Tegan and Sarah in April, regaining my fitness/health, and watching my love enjoy his work THAT much more.

Making me happy: Baby cuddles from my great niece, time spent nurturing my mind/body/and home, de-cluttering and a more organised home, my Ruby Clare and her loving, this blog and other lovelies out there - inspired :-D

Link in below so I can drop by and check out what is happening in your world.

Mel x

NY adventures Day One (image heavy)

My achiever trip to New York City. That I won (see here)

Oh my goodness. It was such a massive experience. So many firsts, massive amounts of places visited that I have dreamt of my whole life, the whole week was just so much.
If the people travelling with me had known how many times I thought "Its just like in the movies! SQUEEEEE!!" to myself they might just of disowned me lol. SQUEEEEE is my delightedexcitedhappydanceohmygawdimightdiefromexcitement sound. My trip was full of SQUEEEEE moments ;-)

The plane trip there was a really concentrated blend of excitement, fun, and wanting to pass out as I felt so horrid. This was my first visit to another country so the novelty of a larger plane was not lost on me. Having taken a fear of flying course and researched like a mofo it wasn't anywhere as an anxious experience as expected.
The Tv and movie options were plentiful, the crew friendly, and I was on my way to freaking NEW YORK CITY!
Via Los Angeles. In economy. Not a short or comfortable trip for me. My legs and feet melded into one swelled mess at around hour five or six. I found it impossible to sleep, all I wanted to do was lie down flat.
The food? Yummy as. They kept bringing it out. The food, Arj Barker live, and a gazillion episodes of hoarders kept me somewhat sane.
That and getting to stretch the legs at Los Angeles.

Arriving at JFK and the drive into the city as the sun went down was amazeballs. Seeing glimpses of the skyline as we drove in was beautiful. Even the traffic was okay. Since I was in America. In New York.

We stayed at the Park Central hotel. Having read plenty of reviews beforehand I knew I was in for an adventure at best. It was interesting. Black mould on walls. Filthy toilet that didn't flush. Glad wrap  over smoke detector.

Nice.

We asked for a new room. They didn't question why or even apologise. The new one smelt like wet feet and had some suss stains on the sheets. Yuck.

the classy view from our room

 Anyhow, we didn't spend much time in the room, we headed straight out for dinners. Mexican and the yummiest cocktail I ever did have. It was a prickly pear Margarita. Can't even remember the name of the restaurant but it was delicious and the service was incredible. Actually, everywhere we ate was about a gazillion times better than it is in Aus.

Walking up to Times Square after ward was super exciting, actually being in Times Square was pretty surreal. Lots of people trying to hustle for money though. 

At dinner we got told what we needed to wear for the next day but not what was happening. It was like that the whole time. In the weeks leading up to the trip I thought this might really bother me but I actually found it super exciting. Most times we wouldn't find out what we were doing until we arrived at that activity.
Anyhow, we got told to dress nicely as we were going somewhere fancy that afternoon.

Our first full day started with breakfast at some cute diner near the hotel (I will mention here how awful the coffee was I encountered pretty much everywhere in New York! Yuck! So watery and bitter) and walking about ten blocks to our first activity for the day...

so stoked to see a mounted policeman - those horses were obviously really well looked after/loved

Times Square sculptures

Times Square 

 ...a bus tour of downtown - super fun - I loved hearing about the landmarks, history of the buildings, and the stories of the city both new and old. 

me! on the bus, my roommate in the background - she was super gorgeous and really lovely

Nourish

This week I have made serious inroads toward the person I wish to be and toward the life I want. It has been a week full of acting on 'things' that have previously been put off or put in the too hard corner. Days full of eating whenever I need to but eating balanced, clean, and nutritious foods. Not all the time however, and that's kinda okay with me (another massive leap for me!)

A nourishing week for my body, mind, and my soul.

My all feels so light and well.

Getting it done my friends, or just taking the first steps is hard but nowhere near as difficult as I led myself to believe.

Watch out orderly home and head, here I come!

Heya!

I am in my hotel's business centre with like 3 mins of internet left so need to be quick!
I am off in manhatten on my own today so have lots on my list. I lovelovelove this city, taking a gazzillion pics and just soaking it all up

Top of the rock, satc locations, Brooklyn bridge and hopefully Grand Central today. heaps want to shop along the way also but see how it goes.

This city is crazy and I love it more than anything
Made my first purchaces yesty.

So excited! I may return to Tiffany again before this trip is done! Hot tip - if you are after good service you might be dissapointed here. Unless you see Ben on the 3rd floor - love his work.

Okay, I am meeting up with some other girls in twenty mins and have some serious journaling to catch up on, cant  wait to upload some of my shots from the big camera.

love Xx

WHAT.THE.FLIP?!?!

Hello dear friends!

I have missed this ever so much and have thought of this space often. My struggles are ever present, though I feel I am winning today (yay!)

Much has been happening.

Work, surprise baby showers, more work, seeing family and friends, weekends and mini get aways in Melbourne (oh how I adore that town!)

Possibly my biggest news however is that I won an amazing award. The word amazing doesn't even do it justice. I am still flipping out that it is even happening to me.

I shall explain. Each year my workplace has two product roadshows for the store managers to attend. We get flown to Melbs to their head office and see all the new product that will be coming that season, have meetings etc. At the end of financial year roadshow an annual awards night is held where store managers and team members are recognised for their achievements.
There is also an annual competition held, with different categories you can win in.
The prize is an overseas trip.

I fucking won in my category.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for cursing, but holy fuck! Is crazy.
I totes deserved it, but thought for sure that I would lose out because stuff like that doesn't happen to me. There I was, all prepared to lose and ready for the disappointment. Such a positive thinker I am haha.

My store won company wide. That's out of like a hundred and something stores. Won't go into specifics (privacy and confidentiality etc) but it was in the area of customer satisfaction. SO proud!

When it was actually announced I was so spun out. Up on the stage I had to ask the girl next to me if I had won, I was still thinking it was some sort of cruel rouse lol.

And then shit got real.

We aren't told where we are going ahead of time. Last year was LA, Disneyland, and Vegas. Year before Hawaii. Not sure, but I think it may of been Thailand before that (before I joined the company)
So yeah, up on the stage we were and they asked the group if we would like to know where we were going.
Um yeah!

Some music started playing, and I was still so spun out that I didn't even comprehend it. Everyone started flipping out so I asked the girl next to me where we were going.
She just looked at me like I was the dumbest person ever haha.

Telling you, shit got wayyyyyy real after that.
A guy came running out dressed as the Statue of Liberty.

Then I flipped out and started crying maybe. All a blur after that haha. I do remember realising that New York, New York was playing and thinking how embarrassing for me not knowing lol.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEW YORK!!!! New fucking York!!!!!!!!

The one place in the world I want to go to most. Even today, three months later I just sat back and shook my head. WTF

Flights, accommodation, food, drink, tours, and entertainment taken care of. Cray cray right?!?!

I leave in like eight days. Is nuts. So flipping excited.

That's my biggest news I wanted to share. Pretty incredible.

So whats news with y'all?

Tell me some stories.

Talk soon x

P.S

♥♥♥

Back to the beginning...again

There is so much that I desire in this life. For myself, my relationship, for my future child/children.
I know the steps that I need to take to get there.
A loose time frame for what I wish to achieve.

Yet I continue to lose time and go in circles.

My anxiety surrounding this wasting of life is all consuming at times.

And still, I fail to progress in any way. Actually, I have gone backward in some aspects so I guess that is some form of progress lol.

Knowing the issues, knowing how to get there, even knowing where to start is very very different from actually doing.

Being mindful enough to pause, recognise the urges for what they are, to make choices that will be in line with my desires for this life. It seems impossible right now to me, but it is the only way to stop avoiding life.

Sure, I am alive but I have not been living at all.

So today I begin. Right now, this moment. Not tomorrow, or "later". This instant. Again.

As hard as I am on myself, being aware enough to know there is more to life and to not be content with 'good enough' is such a blessing. I am only 26 yet I know people decades older that are so very unhappy and have not lived. Sure I have missed much of my youth due to sickness, and having to re-learn alot of basics in my early twenties, but I still have much ahead of me.

So much living to do!

hurro

Hi all, I have been MIA for a while now (well duh)
The truth is I am finding life a bit overwhelming. My self care routine has gone to shit so therefore I am feeling pretty bad emotionally, physically, and also pretty rockbottom spiritually.
This place is never very far from my thoughts, it is all just too much for me right now though.
 Please do connect with me otherwise -




  Or you can email me - m.everitt @ live.com
Missing you all Xx

Bitterness be gone

In my heart I have so many dreams and desires for my life. They may not seem significant to many, and sometimes I myself don't feel as though they are "enough" I don't have these huge plans for world domination, or fame, or even massive wealth. A house of my own, a bubba on my hip, and the love of my life by my side would mean more than all of the gazillion dollars in the world.

 To be a mamma, to love and to be loved back. To make a difference in my world.

 To break this cycle of hatred, bitterness, and dwelling on the past that is ever present in my family.

 It breaks my heart that they can not see the ramifications of their actions. To walk away from it all, to be unforgiving or unable to see that life is not black and white. Family, in my experience anyhow, can be pretty effing frustrating and hurtful at times. They might behave in hurtful ways, break trust time and time again, manipulate etc etc. But they are your family. Your blood, part of who you are today. The world is full enough hate, I cannot fathom actively clinging to such bitterness, of becoming so twisted.
 I can fully appreciate pulling back and protecting yourself and your loves, for that is what I have done myself. Put myself first and done what is best. It is possible to forgive but not put yourself in a position where you will be hurt again. Just sayin'

 "Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned" 

- Buddha

 This running away and shutting people out of your life just perpetuates the cycle. Now I know I don't have children yet, but I hope when (and if) I do that I have enough sense to be leading by example. To be forgiving, treating myself and others with respect, to know who I am and have the guts to be that person.
 I know that I missed out on many key life experiences and relationships in my childhood because of bitterness and anger. I would not want any child of mine to have me in the way of knowing their family or of having such relationships (that is within reason of course)
I guess what I am saying - is that I love and miss my sister and hate that I have to miss out on so much because of hate and other peoples actions that have nothing much to do with me. Because I choose to forgive someone does not mean for a second that I condone their actions in the slightest. It simply means that I choose better, that I do not want my life to be the same.

I'm changing the story, starting now.

essence

es·sence

1.the basic, real, and invariable nature of a thing or its significant individual feature or features: Freedom isthe very essence of our democracy.

This week I found myself reflecting on how this space is lacking in my everyday. Due to my being time poor, the 'big events' tend to get covered, and the rest slips by unmentioned. In future I would like to remedy this by including more topics that make up my days, that mesh together and make up my world. All of the beings and events that are the very essence of my days and of me. Would like this part of my world to match up to the rest.
What better starting off point is there then my biggest obsession?

The beautiful Ruby Clare.
 When I say obsessed, it is possibly an understatement. All day long she is in my thoughts, I manage to bring conversation around to her, and as soon as we get home of an evening we seek her out for cuddles.
 Looking back into the archives on here though she had one mention. Craziness. Last time Ruby had a post of her own (here) she had not long come to live with us. At the time Ruby was quite poorly indeed, needing some vet care asap.
The vet nurse lied about the haircut coming good in a timely manner.
Only now, four months later has all her fur started to even out.

 Ruby is the most spoilt cat I have ever encountered. Feed on demand (starting with first feed at 5.50 am when she wakes us) ramps to get onto our bed and the lounge (she has a bit of trouble jumping these days) and her own blankets to snuggle. When I say her own blankets they used to be ours but she has claimed the fluffiest/warmest to nest on.

Ruby Clare's favourite pastimes -

watching the world from the window sill in the bedroom

sleeping and eating

meowing near our heads if we attempt to sleep past eight

being the most gorgeous feline ever 

sleeping

every few weeks she likes to go outside and walk on the grass a little, she then returns back inside and sleeps for several hours to recover

 We adore her and can't imagine what we did with our time before she joined us.
That, and she is now nineteen years old. NINETEEN! That's nuts.
I had no idea cats lived that long, so I googled it. Turns out Rubes is 93-ish in cat years (whoa) and the oldest a cat lived to on record is thirty something. I can't even imagine.
She is fairly frail already, so I am just stoked on every day we get of her. Would love to see her make twenty.

xo

wedding week revisited

As I mentioned on the 'day before my birthday post' I wish to re-visit a bunch of posts and topics that never did get completed. So here we have it, wedding week revisited.
Day one was terrible. Day two, more fun but still in a heap of pain which was shit as my sister and I had a trip to Ikea planned for that day.
The nearest Ikea to me is in Sydney. I am in Newcastle. That takes almost 2 hours to get there on the freeway. Totes worth it.
Not sure I even bought anything much that trip, but worth it for the meatballs and scented candles. Was sorely disappointed to find that they no longer sell Daim candy, but instead have made their own version of it. We tried their version and it was gross.

Day three was hairdresser, for a much needed colour, and Himself's band playing their second gig ever. That is Himself on the bass to the far right in the pic below.
Very loud but a fun night indeed.

Wedding week kicked up a gear or two from here as we started to seriously run errands on Day Four, and Day Five was spent setting up the reception venue.
FYI chair covers are not simple to put on.

go team :P

Miss Patrice getting her wedding prep on

centre pieces and table scatters - old jam jars with tea light candles and sheet music hole punched into hearts - was perfect

favours for guests -jam jars with the cutest labels ever

Was super fun, and then I went home and (try) to get sleep.
I was so excited and exhausted and everything all at once so the sleep thing wasn't very successful lol.

Bit of a postscript - sorry if this seems all a bit primary school report on 'what I did this summer' etc, my writing skills are pretty stuck at the point that I stopped listening in class properly. It is something that I truly want to look at developing 'one day' as it is very limiting to me. And embarrassing. I suck :(
Another post script - that's totes my bedside table and suitcases above. Just sayin'

Thanks for sticking around while I have been erratic with posting, you guys are amazeballs
See you back here for mine and Patrice's wedding day ;)
Xx

Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?

Of late I have been feeling as though there is always tomorrow to become all I can be, and that second best/half hearted efforts "will do for now"
Stuck in this 'just getting by' rut for the past few weeks has turned me into a zombie. When asked "so what have you been up to lately?" pretty much the standard response is "Just working"
Going to work.
And spending time on facebook and instagram, lurking people that are out living. Dreaming of a life that looks nothing like this.

What I really desire is being able to answer working, blogging, the gym, wandering with my camera, creating, discovering, living this life to its fullness.

This life is short. Too short.

Way too short to leave it untill tomorrow, because tomorrow might never present itself.

"Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?"

 -mary oliver-the summer day 

One more sleep...

...until it is my birthday!!

Well, not my birthday personally, but Melanie Ann Creative's 1st birthday!!

source

YAY! (side note, I don't heaps celebrate my own birthday - as in try to pretend it doesn't exsist - so my level of excitement about this has caught me off guard lol)

It is super exciting because I don't tend to keep at things for very long, and had very little faith in my sticking at this but here I am :)

Still working out direction, finding my voice, and dreaming of all this here space can be. Most importantly of all - loving it so much more than a year ago.

I feel as though I am still so new at this, not a year old blogger thats for sure!
What is to come?

My biggest hope for this next while is to (health permitting of course) continue on with some of the projects I have already started (30 days of blogging for example, oh and freaking wedding week lol) continue posting about my passions/inspirations, and this journey of growth and discovery called life.
On the technical side of things, I want to get out and about with my camera and perhaps even get someone on the other side of it so I can go ahead and get some punchy images of me up on here and make some decent buttons. Perhaps I will finally take the plunge and actually pay someone do all the coding that I can't lol.

Big thanks to all of you that have joined me here, and whom continue on with me here. My fellow bloggers and readers that I have connected with here is truly what it is all about. Much love and even bigger thanks again, you're all amazing!

"Un-slumping yourself is not easily done."

True story.

All day long I have been having little 'I think I can moments' and have started to get up and move about. Move about and try to make the most of the day, to start over again, to fix me up.
But then it has been getting hard/scary/overwhelming, so I stop and try to hide.

I've just described life for many people on this earth I am sure.

Doesn't mean that it is okay by me to live a half-life that is 'easy'

It is so not okay that it is totally laughable. Except I'm not in a laughing mood.

I am in a shitty life-is-hard-and-scary-and-I-don't-wanna mood. Pretty much chucking a tanty because I do not wish to feel this way but I know it is up to me to change it.
The motivation will arrive once steps are taken toward the goal. Same as the feeling-great part too. Don't have to wait until I achieve my 'want' - the 'getting there' part will feel fantabolous.

It is all just too much. Too bright. Too loud. Too scary. Too heavy. It all feels so huge and heavy.

And yuck.

wedding week - day one

As previously mentioned here, I took time off to help prepare and to enjoy the week of Linz's wedding. Or better known as 'wedding week' in this household lol.
Many plans were made for this week starting with lunch on the harbour and cocktails with some workmates on day one.

Never happened.

In fact, when I woke on Monday morning, stood up walked into the kitchen (to feed the cat lol) I was hit with the most excruciating pain ever.
Horrid horrid pain that made me feel like voming.

Possibly navigate away from this post if you are a dude or not very open about women's health....

possible TMI below.....

You were forewarned :P

So I've Endometriosis, reoccurring cysts on my ovaries, and horrible heavy periods that make me really weak (and a moody little bitch haha)
Pretty much at any given time my belly is sore. It ranges from little twinges right through to horrid make me bend in two pain.

But never pain like this. My thinking was that a hot bath would ease the pain so I ran one, it barely took the edge off though. The pains came in waves and it got to the point where I was alternatively screaming out in pain and leaning over the side of the bath to vomit. It was scary. After 30mins or so of this I started to get super frightened that it was a pregnancy or something had ruptured inside me. I then called my parents to come and get me to take me to the Doctors (it must of been bad because I hatehatehate asking for help from anyone or being vunerable Hmm, is that the same thing? Anyhow, it is shit and I don't like it lol)
 and as soon as my Dad was on his way the pain eased off a bit. Always the way haha.

So I ended up having to cancel my lunch date (effing lame!) do a pregnancy test (super negative thankyou very much!) and have been given a 'maybe it was a cyst bursting' diagnoses.
The Dr was super nice though and gave me a new prescription to try, and I am still on a wayyyy long waiting list for surgery to clear out the Endo.

Day One of wedding week sucked, eh?
All I can be glad for is that it didn't happen later in the week. That would of been beyond shit.

a quick hello

Hi there!
The wedding was yesterday. It was seriously amazing. Every aspect was beautiful - the weather, theme, and most importantly the bride!

Linz was stunning.

That all being said I am tired as/hungover and want to do a mega big post on wedding week. So check back for that over the next week, hope this finds you all well.

Thanks for dropping by!

my bouquet from yesterday - amazingly beautiful ♥